In retrospect

Today is 3/29/2009.  I sat in church this morning and the last song in the set was Blessed Be Your Name.  We don’t sing this song a great deal at our church, I can recall that we have sung it exactly 2 other times since Sunday, August 24, 2008.

Now before you go thinking I have a photographic memory, far from it and quite the opposite.

August 24th was 2 days after we had found out that we would miscarry our baby, and I was sitting in church, next to my dear pregnant friend Eve, when this song came on.

I admit, I had to sing the song through gritted teeth.  It did not easily come from my heart, but at the time, I knew that God was talking to me through it.

Today was the day that baby was to be born.  And, we sung this song in church.  I did not immediately connect that today was the actual due date of that dear baby, but I was taken immediately back to the way I felt 7 months ago when I heard that song.

My experience singing this song today was so different.

Less bitter, more thankful….still wishful  for what might have been and for what could be.  

God as always is so present in my day and speaks to me in such wonderful ways, even when I am not ready to hear it.

Blessed Be Your Name  by Matt Redman

Blessed be Your name in the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name
And blessed be Your name when Im found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be your name

Every blessing You pour out Ill turn back to praise
And when the darkness closes in Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name when the suns shining down on me
When the worlds all as it should be
Blessed be Your name
And blessed be Your name on the road marked with suffering
Though theres pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

 

 

 

 

 

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5 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by Er on March 30, 2009 at 7:40 pm

    Thank you for sharing that.
    Tears.

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  2. Anne, wow…Thank you for sharing this…It is so good to see how God works and that he can change our hurt over time. I’ll pray that you conitnue to see God work…once again, thanks for the open door to your heart.

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  3. what a story- thanks for posting this. We labor over song selections and leave so many services wondering how God ministers through them, thanks for the window in to your story.

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  4. Posted by Melissa Freeman on April 1, 2009 at 8:17 am

    Praise God for his mighty ways of comforting the hurting. He is faithful and full of compassion. Thank you for sharing your experience with us. It is a blessing to hear of such a tender experience in your life and how through it all, you kept the communication lines open between you and God. Thanks for sharing.

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  5. Posted by mayfamily on April 1, 2009 at 9:25 pm

    Thanks all for your encouragement. It is amazing that often, all we need to do is simply show up, and then He does the rest. That morning, we had considered briefly the idea of “skipping” church, and then I said, “No, I really want to go”. So thankful we did!

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